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“Like Father” by Rory Waterman

By Luke Stromberg • May 17, 2020 • E-Verse Universe
     Started 2000, finished 2019
     For W. C.
 
My daddy was Irish and famous – ‘Well, sort of Irish
and sort of famous’, he said – and told the truth.
He loved and he was loved, and was a joker,
     and in his youth
 
he’d passed the eleven-plus with such high marks
they’d sent him to private school (plush lawns, straw hats)
but then he’d felt ‘oppressed by the Oxbridge conveyor’
     so that was that
 
for years, while he wrote in garrets and took ‘real jobs’:
porter on Jersey, bank clerk. He explored
the world, and then read English up at Leicester,
     then at Oxford,
 
and won awards, and ‘found’ he was getting in print,
but still worked summers at Leicester station goods-yard.
‘Am I as bright as you, Daddy?’ ‘Probably not’.
     So it was hard
 
not to pine for all he represented
on access visits, and not to be beguiled,
but I knew I wasn’t as special, that I was
     an anxious child
 
who liked to play with marbles on his own,
while mum cooked, watched EastEnders, tidied up.
Who teachers said should ‘come out of his shell’.
     Who had a pup
 
and made her his best friend, and got in trouble
for daydreaming, and caused too much of a fuss
about his distant dad. Who scrapped. Who failed
     the eleven-plus
 
and went to a comprehensive where he learned
never to try too hard. Who knew his place
was in the middle. Who watched his lurch-drunk father
     jab at the face
 
of a steadfast woman patently too good
to stay with him. (She didn’t.) Who wouldn’t become
a poet and scholar too, or much at all:
     he was too dumb.
 
Who later found the custody hearing documents
while helping his mother clear her musty attic:
the affidavits of all his dad’s ex-lovers,
     each emphatic
 
that I’m sure the child’s interests are best served
by being kept from this abusive man,
a drunk who bullied and hit me; his arrest statement
     from when my Nan
 
lost her front teeth (I hadn’t been told the reason).
Until then, I’d seen one short, partial report
to which my father had clung. Mum had buried
     most retorts,
 
and Nan was now in her functional little urn.
And I was trying to be like him – a bit,
in fewer and fewer ways – and started a poem
     and this is it.

 
Rory Waterman was born in Ireland in 1981, and lives in Nottingham, England, where he works at Nottingham Trent University. His first collection of poetry, Tonight the Summer's Over (Carcanet, 2013), was a Poetry Book Society Recommendation and was shortlisted for the Seamus Heaney Prize. His second, Sarajevo Roses (Carcanet, 2017), was shortlisted for the Ledbury Forte Prize for second collections. This poem is from his third collection, Sweet Nothings (Carcanet, 2020), published on May 28.

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    Luke Stromberg

    Luke Stromberg is the Associate Poetry Editor of E-Verse. His work has appeared in The Philadelphia Inquirer, The New Criterion, The Hopkins Review, Think Journal, and several other venues.

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